well..some of my precious thoughts abt life..

Been watchin a jap tv series for the past few days..realli thought through a lot of things..
I hav started learning guitar..bought a self-guide bk..took some time to figure out wat the bk is talking abt(cost me 20bucks for a bk wif unclear instructns)..i practiced for 2 days..realli hurt my figures..the progress is really slow..like the sayin goes ‘first step is the hardest’..however I will work reali hard..yes I will…God shall be my source of strength!
I hav never really done anything on my own..when I was young, I learned piano for a while, I practice everyday nt out of passion,but becoz the teacher ask me to; in school, I study hard, nt becoz I like studying(I doubt anyone does),but becoz my parents said I should; I hand in homework on time nt becoz I like doing them but becoz the teacher will check；and lately,my dad ask me learn French.(I think I will)but if he never brought it up, I will never consider..so, I figured this time, I want to make it on my own..nt to be supervised by anyone..completely on my own will...i want to accomplish something for myself, by myself..
Of course, it is always easier said than done..i already felt complacent..u know..growin up in such environment with ppl constantly telling u wat to do or pushing u forward..it is natural to feel tired when u stand away from the pushin force n try to climb the hill on ur own..however I really wan to hand on..
Maybe learning guitar is no big deal for many..but I wan to use this thing as a startin point for me to be independent..to know tt I hav the ability to achieve things tt I set my mind to do..
To be able to do things nt compelled by others, but hav ur own way of thinking n be able to persist on it..i think tt is the real meaning of freedom..